i think i feel how a mexican back home would feel. i’m not a citizen. i have survival language skills (although getting much better), i have no drivers license and to add…i have no health insurance.
no drivers license, i can handle. it takes me back to the good old new york days when i was busing and subing it the entire time. but health insurance is something i don’t think i can do without. just this past weekend i got hit really hard in the chest playing basketball. the thing is….that it still hurts 5 days later. probably even more so now. i should probably go check it out. it doesn’t hurt until i hold down on it or breathe really hard. in fact, i’ve been working out all week with it, including my morning hikes.
i have a problem with going to the hospital. i don’t know what it is. in high school, i was clipped from behind in a football game. i had no idea i was hurt. in fact, i managed to finish the entire game without knowing. it wasn’t until the next day i realized something was wrong. that was until i was in pain and started pissing out blood. no really…i was pissing blood. according to the doctors, i had a contusion, where my liver was internally bleeding. sounds sick huh? it was!
also a couple years ago, i did something dumb, but quite chivalrous. i socked a guy in the face for disrespecting a lady. i got him pretty good, but it was one of those punches where i it looked good, but it hurt my hand more than it did him. again, i had no idea anything was wrong with me. this time i went a week thinking my hand was just bruised. it wasn’t until someone forced me to go to the hospital to get it checked out. sure enough after the x-rays, i broke my hand.
am i just a beast of burden? how is it i have no clue that i’m hurt. i guess i just endure more. in this case, i don’t think its a good thing. i think i’ll wait a couple more days to see if i’m ok. if not, then i will force myself this time to see a doctor.